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Devious Journal Entry

Tue Nov 17, 2009, 11:23 PM
When I close my eyes at night, sometimes there's someone there that I can't get out of my head. Why is she so like a drug, where she did so little for me, but I'd have done everything within my mortal power for her, that I can't stop seeing her. Maybe it's more the idea than the person, maybe it's more the person than the idea. Was the feeling just of someone, or was it her which made it unique. Why, if she disappeared when I actually needed her for once, let me down when I needed her close, am I still in love with her?

...Am I even? Or is is just heartache and loneliness where something very dear to me used to be....


Memories are like the waves of the ocean, they will come and go, suddenly appearing and lingering just a moment, then ebbing away into conformity with the rest of the ocean. They are like the ripples in a pond, only a small stone is needed to unleash waves of forgotten feelings.

Every person must know these feelings, "I'm so much better off without you, doing so much more, using my time and life better.. but why does it still feel like my chest is empty and my eyes are swollen when I think about you?"

Why does it feel like the world is dead because I won't get to hold you again.



I hate nights like these.

  • Mood: Miserable
  • Listening to: my bedroom fan, from when i went to bed 30 minutes

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  • Current Residence: eastern Washington
  • Interests: Electronics, video production, robotics, anime, scifi, cute girls.
  • Favourite movie: Zombies, horror, action, comedy. In that order ;)
  • Favourite genre of music: Alternative rock, techno, RnB/Hiphop.
  • Operating System: XP for now. Gotta have games.
  • MP3 player of choice: Winamp. duh.
  • Shell of choice: CMD
  • Wallpaper of choice: Anything tasteful.
  • Favourite gaming platform: Computer- LAN.
  • Personal Quote: "I like to be good at what I do."
  • Tools of the Trade: A camera, Photoshop, Sony Vegas 8, and my custom rig.

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:iconjulieflute:
Thanks for the watch! :D

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Love is blind and lovers cannot see the pretty follies that themselves commit; for if they could, Cupid himself would blush. ~ Jessica, Merchant of Venice by Shakespeare
:iconkumaru-sworder:
lol, anytime ;) so you guys comin tonight?

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A.M. Johnson
:iconsirblakeen:
Hello there random deviant. :wave:

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~ "La culpa la tiene la mafia..."
:iconkumaru-sworder:
that is indeed pretty random, hello

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A.M. Johnson
:iconsirblakeen:
Haha. That's the point.

:wave:

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~ "La culpa la tiene la mafia..."
:icontsuki-spartaness:
YOU'VE BEEN HUGGED!!

Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)

RULES:
1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You -MUST- hug 6 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their user page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitely get started hugging right away!

Send This To All Your Friends, And Me If I Am 1.
If You Get 7 Back You Are Loved!

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[2]11:19 Spartaness[N1NJ4]: I've been downgraded to a Talking Lightbulb. Brilliant.

"Resignation is my virtue; like water I ebb, and flow. Defeat is merely the addition of time to a sentence I never deserved... but you imposed."- Gravemind.
:icontsuki-spartaness:
Heya! Whats up?

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[2]11:19 Spartaness[N1NJ4]: I've been downgraded to a Talking Lightbulb. Brilliant.

"Resignation is my virtue; like water I ebb, and flow. Defeat is merely the addition of time to a sentence I never deserved... but you imposed."- Gravemind.
:iconkumaru-sworder:
playing GoW2, you?

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A.M. Johnson
:icontsuki-spartaness:
Fine. Just about got my fingers pulled off from the shopping I was forced to carry >.< lol

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[2]11:19 Spartaness[N1NJ4]: I've been downgraded to a Talking Lightbulb. Brilliant.

"Resignation is my virtue; like water I ebb, and flow. Defeat is merely the addition of time to a sentence I never deserved... but you imposed."- Gravemind.
:iconkumaru-sworder:
lol, nice.

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A.M. Johnson

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